apathy

ok uhmmm, here's some random stuff that's going through my head.

Wednesdays are boooooorrrrriiinnggg!!! 2 hours thy, 1 hour phist and a whopping 2 hours of FIL! and the day ends with an hour of English right after one vacant hour. 3 of my worst subjects and one boring subject all in one day or rather, 3 subjects that can't help me in real life + 1 boring subject in one day.

about 2 months ago, life was very colorful and i never run out of things to look forward to, but now everything seems bland, as if all the excitement had disappeared. I find myself unable to look forward to anything. Food has lost it's taste. It seems like everything is worthless to me.....i wonder why? I guess i'm just not in the mood. but what mood am i in? since i don't have a name for it, maybe i'll just call it apathy.

and here is a song about apathy by relient K.

"Apathetic Way To Be"


Yeah, I'm not angry
And no, I'm not upset
It's taken me awhile
But this is what I've learned
Emotional attachment is really not a threat
When I'm simply not concerned

The things that I take on
I soon shrug off
'cause I know no one
Will ever be content
With the way things are
Or with what they've got
So I've given up and now I'm just indifferent

You all laugh at me
Like I'm not happy
With anything, any time, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half just doesn't care

I must admit;
All the words you spoke, I hated
Cause I don't see just how I can be motivated
Enough to break a sweat over a dying race
It seems our fate is something we've already embraced

Yeah, I'm not angry,
And no, I'm not upset
It's taken me awhile
But this is what I've learned
Emotional attachment is really not a threat
When I'm simply not concerned

You all laugh at me
Like I'm not happy
With anything, any time, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half just doesn't care

Yeah, bein' apathetic's a pathetic way to be
(I don't care)
What matters to you does not matter to me
('cause I don't care)

So take a wild guess
It's like I just couldn't care less
If all the things you find impressive
Just blew up and made those messes
That you'll frantically repair
Like it's a life or death affair
And all the while you're unaware
For this, you really shouldn't care
But it's so hard to see the reality
That the end will be the end of things
And our hearts are all we get to bring
So let's go ahead and make them worth something

You all laugh at me
Like I'm not happy
With anything, any time, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half just doesn't care

You all laugh at me
Like I'm not happy
With anything, any time, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half just doesn't care

I'm well aware that everything
Is a far cry from all right
I'm well aware that all of us
Can at times, be too uptight
And possibly, the remedy
Is a dose of apathy
You point your finger at you
I'll point mine right back at me

(i'm not emo, don't get me wrong. it's just that, i'm not happy nor sad, so....i can't be emo if i feel no emotion. this makes me not emo or the opposite of emo. no offense to emo people, i have nothing against them, it's just that i don't want to be called something i'm not....and that is emo).


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